Here's a little background info on me: I'm emetophobic. I fear vomiting. I am not going to tell you how many times I've vomited or when the last time I vomited was in fear that I will jinx myself. It's an errational fear that usually consumes me during the months that I am in school. This is because I'm around other people. Other people may be sick.

So, this year I am carpooling with a girl a grade below me. Yesterday she was absent from school. Today I find out that she was throwing up. You are contangous with the 'stomach flu' for up to two days after you have it. Her mother made a comment that she didn't feel good this morning. I have no idea what that is supposed to mean, and I'm not sure I want to find out.

So, now I will see my carpool person and her mother as someone who is 'sick' for at least a few weeks. I will not see them as safe, and I will see getting in their car or her getting into my car as a danger to my health. I will not be comfortable for at least another week or so before the feeling eventually dies down and I can start to resume a normal pattern for life.

I will not do the things that I love or eat the things that I like for about a week in fear that I will vomit and have to start my life over again (Literally get new hobbies, watch new TV shows, etc., etc.)

So, please, if you have been sick, don't go near me for at least two days (Or even better yet, don't mention it!). I don't want to have to start a new life again.

I have a shrink. I have told her about it. She's said 'get over it.' Please do not suggest that.

Labels: rant, school